Oh how I am afraid of you...

I'm afraid of you.

You're so flawlessly perfect,
it's effortless.
You're you.
You say you love me.
You say you want me.
but I just push you away...

I'm so afraid of you.

You are like the epitome of my desires.
You have no idea how much I want you back,
how much I love you.
but I'm still so afraid.

I push you away
and tear you down
and shove you to your limits
because I don't know what else to do.

I can just somehow sense you'll be like everyone else
even though you reassure me that you never will.
I can just feel the words echo
"He's lying..."
over and over and over.
It's like a broken record,
embedded into my memory.

I'm afraid of you.