What is It?

Everything is falling apart,
I can feel the ripples glide through me,
like pebbles skipping across a peaceful ocean.
But, I feel so alone,
that I cannot begin to fathom the pain that takes hold of each nerve.
I feel paralyzed, trapped in this dystopic society.
I can't even protect the people I love from these despicable dangers.
There's nothing left but tainted memories, burned by the flames of each puff of smoke you release.
Like photos caught afire, it burns deeper and deeper.
Nothing left but a pile of forgotten debris.
This person I once was is lost in this unorganized mess, as I sift through what is left.
All because I took that one opportunity,
to feel free again.
It toppled my heart, like dominoes falling in unison with one another.
It tumbles and crashes,
it tramples the soul like an insolent creature, not fit to live.
I know I'm not worth it, but why did it have to be like this?
The rain wafts over me like a shower of tears,
all that is left is broken and torn apart, burned or charred.

How did this happen you may ask?

_{Just because I tried it, once.}